(((((((((sujuwnew))))))))

I really don't think its uncommon to feel that way. I know that I often times felt like that... almost like I failed at failing to have a bad coping mechanism if that makes sense? Like you can't even properly punish yourself... or something to that degree.

But you know what? The more I started to do that... the less I actually did SI, and over time, I stopped feeling bad for it. I think its just that initial "shock" value of not being able to follow through with something you want to do.

Hang in there,
Jacq