Thank you all for the suggestions and encouragement. I will be going, i figure "why not" at this point.

Do you have any suggestions as to how to cut through the crap with your therapists? I guess i just want to be diagnosed. I think i might be bi-polar, or really depressed... some one said I might be a psychopath. Whats funny is that I have learned to fake my emotions so well, I cant even tell if i am lying to myself or not. I mean, show me a bloody corpse and I wont be disturbed, but if you showed it to me infront of someone who was, i would try to make them think that i was disturbed a little by it. I am not sure what that means. Perhaps I am a compulsive liar... I really have no death wish for myself, or others, but i like to push people to their limits.

What are you all getting out of this?

-Aman