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Old Oct 30, 2019, 05:11 PM
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I致e grieved long and hard about my career and for the person I was prior to diagnosis.

My prediagnosis personality was a Type A. 100 miles an hour. Post diagnosis very best case scenario is that I知 a content plodder who needs AP痴 just to function at a basic level.

I致e said it in another thread that it痴 been difficult to go from being a someone who e.g. implemented the gold standard in neonatal ventilation to a nobody who has to colour in just to practise mindfulness. I used to have so much positive influence and impact on the world around me and now I have none.

I知 also physically/medically limited but was always able to work through and around any limitations. E.g I知 the oldest living person in Australia with my set of problems including a herniated brain stem. Being mentally unstable has been far more devastating for me than any of my medical diagnoses.

Bipolar has broken me and I can稚 be fixed and that makes me sad.
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