Thank you BirdDancer

Yeah my Dad to Leukemua and then my more had a heart condition and had always said she hoped she would just fall asleep and not wake up. She had actually decided to retire from being a Hair stylist. It would have been her last day. I’m grateful she got her wish, instead of fighting for 2 years like my father did.

I just have my daughter and I’m so grateful. My husband has 3 sons and we get alone ok, but when I was just a mess and suicidal , my husband and I decided our marriage was just over, his sons basically hated me ( long story) they were all adults.. we “ get along ok” but I still think they feel I’m just the bytch there dad married. It’s all so complicated.

Steve always insists I’m Payton’s grandmother, but I just don’t feel it. I love her to pieces. But if my husband were to die I’d likely never see anyone after the funeral and they take any of his things they want.

My daughter also has BP I and has decided she will never have children, she wouldn’t want to pass along BP but she flat out admits she just could never do everything a mom needs to do to raise a child, so I’m glad she understands her own limitations. I do have a grandkitty names Cosmo.

Life is so weird