The thing that happened to my life in the last week is so horrible that I don't feel prepared to mention it. The sorrow is reaching me slowly and it is better that way.

But I just wanted to share that feeling when it's late at night and you are exhausted because you have been hurting all day, and trying to function anyway, and keeping yourself together to not freak out your family (if you are blessed to have one supporting family)?

Like now it is 1:48 AM, I have just been sitting through 3 sitcom episodes and now I feel like I've earned the right to go to bed and close my eyes.
But the enxt thing will be me waking up off guard and being assaulted by fear for the next day, and the next week and the next months... So I will sit here in the dim light, breath and enjoy a bit more.
Thank you all for reading
God bless you