Dear jrae, Thank you for your kind reply. I just do the best I can. What else can we do? And, oh my goodness, trust! Such a precious thing & so hard to feel with so many people. And therefore, we feel lost. And we feel alone. But we're not really alone. Not here at PC. And I have a good friend. And you have your maybe one "exception". And we have something else, God, Life Force, Universal Intelligence, Internal Spirit, etc. Plus others out there, & our future. I wish so much for you! I hope with all my heart things will start feeling better for you. Lots of hugs, Breaking Dawn