If this were an isolated incident I'd say yeah, it shouldn't bother you. But this is an ongoing issue so I understand the long term effects.
My school decided I was gay (yes, they decided) when I was in 9th grade. I'd always been picked on and physically pushed around but once I was labeled as gay, things became extremely violent. My nose was broken, ribs and wrist cracked. I got black eyes and bruises. I was afraid to walk the halls or the streets in my neighborhood. Ultimately this took such a toll that I carried a razor blade with me for when I got up the guts to kill myself. Before long I dropped out of school, moved to the city, and got very involved with drugs.
So what's my point? It matters. It's hurtful to be labeled something that you're not. It effects how you see yourself and causes significant anxiety. So you have my sympathies.
What to do about it is harder. My ultimate solution was to dismiss much of the world and their opinions and live in the margins. This was liberating but simultaneously isolating. This contributed to my ongoing feeling of being different from everyone and my inability to trust affection from others.
I hope you find a better way to cope with this and I hope you don't mind that I shared so much of my own experiences.
Good luck. Be safe.
Cyran0
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My blog: http://cyran0.psychcentral.net/
Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse.
Meds: Zoloft, Lorazapam, Coffee, Cigarettes
"I may climb perhaps to no great heights, but I will climb alone." -Cyrano de Bergerac
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