Halloween pictures to 5 ''friends'' and one of them replied
Why does that even bother me...
I should be used to being a complete social reject and ''failure'' by now, right?
and probably being gossiped about and dissected like an insect
(not anyone here)
(eta.. I really wasn't meaning members here)

and my thread here ''what do I like about myself'' goes on, did I even start that thread? I don't remember
There isn't much I like about myself
I certainly don't like this post...
maybe I can't blame the professionals in this forest irl for shunning me and not even trying to help or give any strategies to ....
it must be my fault for being faulty since birth and nothing to do with the traumas I've experienced, right? That is basically what a professional implied. too much blaming and no help. That doesn't mean that I ''choose'' to be a ''victim'' it means that going for help and being abused, minimized and invalidated is … not .. helpful
(if you reply please don't minimize my pain, that is not helpful to me)
''bad paws''