Ummmm,

Yeah, feeling a little better. Still having ugly thoughts. Spoke to T briefly a while ago. He said last night's message was garbled. I said I will fill him in tomorrow. I said I felt better. He said that I sound better. He told me what time I would be able to reach him today if I need to make contact. I will hold onto that. Just knowing--yes, just knowing he is there makes the difference. I told him I feel safe right now. Yeah, in the here and now I feel safe. This is about feeling and being invisible. Am I really here? Or am I a figment of my imagination? When I reach out do I touch someone?

Sigh.