First off,I'd like to say hi to everyone.Haven't been here for a while as I have not been well.Just diagnosed with autoimmune eye disease so I'm trying to get a handle on that right now.Isn't it sad when you don't know which disorder to look after first?!For those I haven't met here before,I am a survivor of bipolar disorder,BPD,OCD,and a severe anxiety disorder.I feel strongly that the horrible anxiety is a symptom of all of these.I am on meds and have been on various cocktails for years.They are the main reason I am functional.In fact,my therapist feels that at times,I have been quite high functioning.I have also been hospitalized on several occassions so it varies.Recently,I was forced to go back to work part time in a physiotherapy clinic.I am a hermit by my own admission and sometimes find it too much to even answer calls from dear friends.I work with people I know well away from work and they are aware of my struggles.I also feel that if I were not forced to do this I would comfortably stay alone a good portion of the time.This isn't in my best interest.Having sounded reasonable and aware of my limitations,let me say that I hate working and being away from home.Not because I'm lazy,I just get SO anxiety ridden to work with patients looking down at me that I can't think,I make really stupid mistakes,sometimesI can't even put a sentence together.I am forgetting simple instructions as soon as they are given to me and even forget important events scheduled for later that day.I have noticed that in the last few weeks it is getting worse to the point that I am worried about losing my job.I know how debilitating this diorder can be but this has me concerned that I,m neurologically damaged.I have been at this job for 6 mnths. now so I don't understand why it is so bad now.I have seen my GP who has put me back on respiredal which makes me muddled too.I guess I'm wondering if anyone else is finding these symptoms familiar.I'm worried that I'm somehow sliding and if I lose this job I will look(once again) like a loser to my husband(not his words).We need the money badly right now and he is always healthy and outgoing.I am always fighting to be like everyone else.He will pick up the slack and kill himself trying to make ends meet.I am already feeling like a loser I guess.I don't think there are any concrete answers but I'm kind of scared right now.I hope you all know what a huge help it is when you share your stories and support each other like you do.You are all very brave.jill.