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Nov 01, 2019, 03:37 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2019
Location: You'll never know
Posts: 940
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@Amyjay
(((safe hugs))) (((lots of hugs)))  
I'm sorry you struggle now, and that your struggles affect your work.
When I read Oxnam's book (A Fractured Mind), I think he went through a rough patch and took some time off before returning to his government (or government-like) job. I hope he's still alive and okay. I haven't checked. He was an inspiration to me because his story brought me hope for myself and for others with DID, like you. Maybe you will get through this rough patch and then succeed in your line of work.
I don't know what to do at this point in my life, but one of my mentors said that, at my age, I need to do it now and keep moving forward. One of my mentors is a retired social worker and researcher, but he doesn't know about my DID. He only knows of my PTSD.
My other mentors in different fields are all supportive, but they don't know about my DID.
The one mentor who did know about my DID, who also happened to disbelieve in DID, never supported me. I knew then to never disclose DID. It's hard enough to disclose PTSD, but DID - that's too controversial, as are other disorders. I was asked to disclose my disorders by this mentor, however. I was never asked to disclose anything by my other mentors, which worked out much better for me. 
And I'm not even at the level of working.
I've deteriorated for the past five years, largely due to retraumatization from multiple people. I moved far away from them to rehabilitate. Those mean people hurt me, which worsened my conditions. I would have been fine had it not been for them stunting my progress in therapy. 
Anyway, I hope we are both able to heal and grow from all this. Maybe all of us could use some advice from one of the famous DID-ers who pushed through and found meaningful and successful careers or ways of life.
It's nice to hear from you, too, because you are successful! I wish I had your skills. I'm not there yet.
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