I like the solitude and I like the peace, but I crave a bit of chaos too.

The solitude keeps all of the influences away, the influences of the chaos I crave. The peace keeps my demeanor calm and presents alternate possibilities for my handling of situations. The chaos though, it's sweet and it's enticing, it calls like a Siren.

For me, my past wasn't very long ago. Only feels like a little over a year ago things were still happening and chaos was the only game in town. It wants me back. I don't want it, though, but something that takes the edge off of the thought of returning.