i want to text him memes i find funny and that i think he'll laugh at too (i wish i had just done that once when still in therapy with him and then deal with the response)
i want to share everyday thoughts with him, and for him to chuckle at them
i want to wake up next to him and him to cuddle me good morning or me him
when i am worried i want him to think along with me, and maybe to make fun of me a little bit as well so i can laugh about my own worryfulness, and still be liked by someone
i miss his chuckle because it sounded so much like he really liked me in a way that i want somebody to like me