i've written out this long (boring) post and now i feel like deleting it :-(
maybe i ''should'' learn not to write long and boring posts in the first place :-(

i'm feeling sensitive and ……. :-( (Thud)

It's not easy to write a long post and put it out there. I know i'm not alone in feeling that, that's something....

I wonder why some people are so arrogant and so sure they are always right? maybe I attract people like that into my life who then reject me? the paternal unit is an extreme ''case'' of that so maybe i'm ''doomed'' I really don't get it. and I don't know why so many people have treated me as if I was ''less than'' because of a mental health issue which was never my ''choice''

It is very very tiring and very boring

sometimes i'm surprised when someone appreciates my wisdom (their word not mine) who I don't know very well as I've been told by so many I am ''worthless''

I was thinking of hibernating completely but maybe that isn't healthy for me :-(

this is not not not because anyone here has done anything ''wrong''

its always me who is wrong, everywhere I go (except for here) people tell me that i'm wrong (thud)

i'm sorry about this boring and negative post (thud)

I guess if people think bearing our soul isn't cool then i'm not cool, I don't really care if i'm cool or not...

my mood was a bit improved for a short while. but then... thud

I feel like deleting this post. but if it helps even one person who is also struggling then I guess it isn't completely wasted.

I have to say i'm not really a fan of ''fake positivity'' (that is just my preference and no insult to anyone who finds positive thinking helpful. I do sometimes but not all the time... find it to be of some help

really fuzzy bear who wants to read your ''boring'' rant

(someone on another forum, not pc, …. ugh. why do those oh so superior people bother me? they are NOT superior. they are simply lacking in empathy Its quite funny really in a sick way. my words were picked apart and when I didn't use words that was picked apart too
I haven't been back there. but as that was what they wanted in a sense they have ''won'' :-( and I have no idea why they were so mean … I guess I wasn't a typical new member so the bullies banded together to make me feel like I didn't fit in. its true, I don't fit into a mean and bullying environment.
(not about anyone on pc)