Wow... I'm blown away that not only have you all read my post, but taken the time to reply. Thank you.

I am on meds - fluoxetine, one a day, been taking them for about 4 months now.

I've known that I've been 'depressed' for a long time, years. I hadn't been able to admit or recognise until recently that my depression is something that does need medical intervention - and now I'm going to give therapy another try. About 4 years ago my doc referred me to T. I had refused anti depressants for the second time, convinced that i would get over it.. But T didn't go well at all and i felt extremely uncomfortable, and didn't open up.

Over the years I have thought about events in my life that are porobably at the root of, or contribute to my depression. Although I've been able to think about these things, I have never been able to discuss them with anyone. I'm hoping that I will be able to be honest when I meet my new T, and I also hope that by using this forum, I can write about some of the things I am unable to say out loud.

I think I'm rambling now... I've never used a forum or anything similar before, it's all new to me, so I'll just keep checking it out and I hope that I'm 'doing it right'...

Thanks again folks,

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