Hi Jill. I can relate to you as I recently went back to work myself after an extended period of time. I have severe anxiety, depression and OCD. I am currently on medication but as you well know that isn't 100%. I guess my advice to you is to not be too hard on yourself. Sometimes our illness has a way of sneaking up on us and affecting us in ways that are beyond our control. Stay strong. There are good days and bad ones. My thoughts are with you. Take care.