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Old Nov 03, 2019, 10:24 AM
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Originally Posted by Amyjay View Post
I want to raise this topic again after watching a new Netflix documentary called "Tell me who I am". It isn't about DID, but is the true story of identical twin brothers who were severely abused in childhood. They didn't dissociate but always remembered the abuse. That is, until one of the twins had a near fatal head injury and awoke from his coma with absolutely no memory of anything or anyone, except for his brother. Basic story is, his brother nurses him back to health but does not tell him about the abuse. So this twin interacts with his family as though nothing ever happened. This is the part that has intrigued me, as I have alters that interact with our family as though nothing has ever happened. But it HAS happened. And those alters just don't get it.

Has anyone else seen this movie or is anyone else familiar with this dynamic? We are trying so hard to work through this at the moment, and want to find a way to reach those alters in us that are still attached to the perpetrators.
@Amyjay

I haven't seen that documentary, but I'm interested in watching it in the future. Thanks for sharing.

I've watched movies like the "Bourne Identity" series and "50 First Dates," which remind me about my own memory loss. Both deal with trauma, but both also deal with memory loss. I've often wondered if DID could include memory loss, as opposed to fragmented memories that hold amnesiac barriers between them.

For the persecutor alters (I'm not sure what ANP stands for), they hold some sort of interalized yucky memories that mimic my various abusers.

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We're still trying to figure out how disorganized attachment fits in. Maybe it's our switching behaviors and moods that appear "disorganized" to other people. It's not push and pull exactly, but it is different levels of engagement. --Could that be it??

As far as memory, I wonder if our identities are the sum of our memories, or if our identities are separate from our memories. That's another point to ponder. Hmm...

(((safe hugs)))