I had a weird dream last night. Something about my family (including me) was trapped in a Christian cult and I was trying to distract the cult leader so we could escape. I ran and ran and finally found my car but it wouldn’t start and the cult leader caught up to me. Then I woke up. Very strange. Not too scary though, even though it seems like it should be.

My nightmares (I had one the other night) have taken on a new but similar theme. Now I see to be stuck with either my husband or my ex boyfriend from high school and they are treating me badly and abusing me and all I can think in the dream is how much I need to get back to RS. But I can never find him. I have to escape the abuser and often I can’t, and then I wake up. When I wake up I have to put my arm around RS to make sure he is still there. This is a similar theme to him leaving me or being trapped in the hospital and being unable to contact him, but a little different. I hope they abate.

Today RS is working so I’m taking my son to my grandmas so I can wash a blanket. My comforter is too big to fit in our dryer but it smells funny and needs to be washed. So I’m gonna bring it there. My grandfather won’t be there: my grandmother finally made the decision to put him In a home, at least for a little while. He’s too weak to navigate the house anymore. It’s a split level house and his room is upstairs, and his legs are too weak to make it up and down the stairs and to the bathroom. He also has dementia. I think it will be end up being a long term thing eventually. My grandmother is 82, she can’t care for him anymore.

I put chili in the crock pot and dishes in the dishwasher so we are good to go!