That's a lot of stuff to go through! Take it one day at the time. I believe it is actually good that His Mother is inviting you over. You'll have have a chance to talk things over with her! Just explain to her how you feel and talk to her about ALL of this. Be Honest and see how it goes from there! I am so sorry about your Brother! You are already doing a lot by helping him and your Nieces/His Children. I am also TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY ABOUT YOUR LOSS AS WELL! Try to keep your Grandmother in your heart and I'm sure she'll appreciate it! Please take things slowly and one step at the time. You deserve to feel better! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME when you need someone to talk to or vent to! I am SURE plenty of others will be REALLY HAPPY AND REALLY GLAD to help you out in any way, method, shape or form that they can help you with! THAT'S A PROMISE! I PROMISE YOU THAT! YOU CAN REST ASSURED OF THAT! YOU CAN ABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY COUNT ON US ANDABSOLUTELY AND UNDENIABLY RELY ON US! PLEASE DO GET THE HELP YOU NEED AND DESERVE, FOR BOTH YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND ESPECIALLY! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH YOU, @TheOutsider90, your Family, your Friends, your Husband, your Brother, your Grandmother and ALL of your Loved Ones! Just try to stay close to your Husband and be near him! Support him when he needs it and make him understand that you'll ALWAYS be ther when he DOES decide to give up his drinking for good! You're still in time to save your Marriage but of course that depends on HIM and not only you! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens, ok?