That is hard, @Twitch99! I completely agree witht he wise and wonderful advice from the wise and wonderful @Lilly2! Please do listen to what @Lilly2 has to say! It does seem weird that they won't accept people who are depressed but suicidal, although I guess there are some legal causes they don't want to get into. Have you talked to your Pdoc about ALL of this? Perhaps he can give you some advice if you want to enter into one of those Clinics. In any case, keep working on yourself. I believe that the best thing to do is to work on the underlying causes of your Depression while also taking the necessary Meds! I am happy that you're trying to help yourself and that you have someone watching over you at the very least. Sending many safe, warm huga to BOTH you, @Twitch99, your Family, your Friends, your Wife, your Relatives, your Pdocs, your Therapists, your Doctors, your Nurses and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens, ok?