It hard for me to hear when other people are wanting to off themselves. It's hard for my alters, too. We learned what it was like to deal with pain and to not do that or go down that road. We've been med-free and SI-free and SH-free for over a decade now. When we hear about someone online or in PM wanting to off themselves, we get scared. We don't want them to die. We want them to feel healed and loved and cared for and alive. We want them to find professional help, but some don't want professional help. We try our best to reach out for help to be able to help them and to assert our boundaries, but we also need to take care of ourselves, too. We just want everyone to be safe. We accept them in their pain, but it's hard to hear when all the responsibility seems to fall on us and what we say in response, as opposed to what we can do on our part to communicate about resources, tips, and our hope for that hurting person. We don't want them to disappear or hate us, but we'd rather have them hate us than to be gone. We don't want them hurt or gone. We are sad. We are feeling really sad and scared for them. We want everybody safe.