I am so sorry you are suffering, you guys. I struggle with SI quite a bit as well. But being on PC has really helped me. I don't feel so alone, like such a freak or weirdo for having thee thoughts and feelings. People here can relate to me and what I go through. I don''t have to explain all of it because people just get it.

My depression tells me a false narrative. It is inaccurate. My illness is trying to kill me. That is its goal. I will not let it win. I will persevere. I will get help from others. I will not give up. There are people out there who love me. My Higher Power loves me. Things will get better. I just have to not quit.

So, I won't quit. I hope no-one quits. we can get better. We can heal. We just have to hang in there and not give up. I hope everyone who is hurting right now feels better today. Just keep pushing ahead. There is hope.