If you want my opinion, @otroo, I'd say you're in no obligation to go if you don't feel like it. But with that said, it is also true that it may be the last time you'll be able to see her. I'd have a serious thinking aboutr this and perhaps even discuss ALL of this with your other sibilings and your own parents as well if you haven't already, why not? After that, you'll be able to make up your own mind. If you still decide to not go, that's ok. It is your decision. I just want to encourage you to consider ALL options before making a definitive choice. You can even decide to visit your Sister at the Hospital but not attend her Funeral. Lots of people do that, actually, although for different reasons than yours. Or perhaps only go to the Funeral. Your choice! In any case, I am TRULY, DEEPLY SORRY that you, your Sister, your Family, your Relatives and your Sibilings are going through ALL of this! Please be kind to yourself and to others as well. It is an hard situation for ALL of you. I am sure you'll make the right and best decision. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @otroo, your Family, your Friends, your Sister, your Sibiling, your Parents, your Therapists, your Doctors, your Pdocs, your Nurses and ALL of your Loved Ones! I'll keep your Sister and ALL OF YOU in my Thoughts and Prayers! I Hope and Pray things will turn out well for your Sister and ALL OF YOU! Keep fighting and keep rocking! I'm thinking of ALL OF YOU! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens, ok?