I’m feeling sad and it’s an uncomfortable, anxious feeling that my relationships with my family members are estranged.

Do I want to ‘repair’ them or just get used to the new reality they are estranged?

Specifically, are my sisters. Both showed zero empathy and concern for me through what was a very painful situation. So, if I ‘repair’ with them, it means that I call them and act like nothing ever happened. Then there is that the nature of the relationships were not good and I’d need to change to something that a long-distance sister relationship is supposed to be... which I am not sure exactly what that looks like.

Seriously, would we talk about recipes?

I’ll never get an apology for how I was treated.

It would just be some fake occasional contact.

But would that make me feel a better comforting feeling like I do have family? Should I just do fake for the pleasant delusion?