You are seriously so hurtful. I feel like texting you I won't be talking to you anymore, but that seems like an empty threat.
I can't tell if I'm being crazy or not. I can't tell if you're in the wrong. I can't tell if it's reasonable to feel hurt.
I regret putting my trust in you and sharing the things I have shared in the past few months - but not because your response to those things was hurtful. I feel regret because I let your responses mislead me. I took what you said at face value. But when you talk to C, it's clear what you actually think of me. And it hurts my feelings that you encourage her to come and put the option of her coming for what is supposed to be my time. That is really hurtful. You don't speak to me that way about her or taking her time. I feel like I invested some of my precious trust in you and you don't even value it. I let you make me think I mattered enough to have session time to talk. Now it turns out you don't really believe that and I can just be shoved aside as needed. You are just like C. I am not a real person to you.
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Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face.
-David Gerrold
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