I am very masochistic. Some people will call themselves masochistic because of mainstream BDSM culture. They like to be flogged or whatever.

I am far more masochistic than that. I think it ties into trauma and OCD.

Is there another way to fullfill masochistic tendancies without extreme behaviors?

I will not elaborate on my fetishes beyond saying they would probably horrify the average person. I would like to build less self destructive habits, but still somehow appease my masochistic core. Ideas?