Hopefully I found the perfect psychologist for me. She offers a free phone call or email to see if we're a good match. Email seems safer but I don't know what to say. I want to tell her I might be a little too crazy and that 1 - 2 times per month I go through intense suicide that leads to crazy depression but after years I've never followed through because of fear.

I would be afraid to death to tell her of all my thoughts, theories, ideas about reality, my childhood & my past, me, the voices, how much I now hate humans, etc., especially in person.