@~Christina:

"my non stop bleak not even the flicker of a match in the distance just dark"

That's very sad and i'm sorry that you feel that way. But it does seem poetic! Are you just having a dark moment? You don't usually come across as feeling that way. Or is this the "real you" and you're just putting on a brave face the other times? You're so supportive around here, it's amazing that you can still give so much if this is truly how you feel. An inspiration! I am reminded of the Natalie Merchant song "Kind and Generous":

"You've been so kind and generous /

I don't know how you keep on giving /

For your kindness i'm in debt to you /

For your selflessness my admiration /

For everything you've done /

You know i'm bound /

I'm bound to thank you for it!"

Be well my friend!