Yes, I can very much relate, @whimsicalman. I, too, am often angry or irritable to my Parents, especially my Father. I shouldn't be, but that's just the way it is! I COMPLETELY agree with BOTH the wise and wonderful @Skeezyks and @mote.of.soul have already wisely and wonderfully said better than I possibly ever could in my whole and entire Life! Don't blame yourself. It is not your fault i you're feelign this way. Are you seeing a Therapist? He/she may teach you some healthier coping skills other than the ones you're currently employing. Hit me up if you want to as I feel like our situations are very much alike, although I may be wrong of course. Still, give it a try if you wish to. Keep posting here as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @whimsicalman, Your Mother, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens, ok?