BPcyclist, thank you for your encouragement. What I can say about your books,the hard work of writing the books is done and they are edited. I understand your fear is holding you back. You will get in the right frame of mind one day and try to have an agent sell them for you. Nothing ventured nothing gained.
They are ready for when you are, don't despair you will get there. I hope your books are a massive success when you do decide .I understand you holding your breath in panic anticipating failure but you don't know for definite and even the person who edited the book thought it was a good one.

With me I am frightened to write the books cos part of me is certain they won't measure up. I find it difficult to get my ideas in order and express my ideas on paper and get them to make sense but I am going to try write a book on mental health next year.

I think exploring your fears could help. I admire you for the work you do saving people's lives in accident and emergency. I don't have much time for doctors or medical staff usually but accident and emergency staff I have nothing but praise for. I often wonder if these staff feel fear and you have explained toy do,to feel fear and do it anyway is marvelous, that is what courage is. Maybe you can do this with your books?