So write down things you have looking forward.... your vacation. You likely needing to find a much better job. Thanksgiving, and Christmas coming soon. Church activities. When your mind wanders stop and write in your journal of upcoming things... might be writing it over and over but take control of your feelings, fight FOR the things coming into your life Not giving your past power to effect your life moving forward.

Maybe some new kind of different cakes or cookies you can make for Christmas gifts this year. Bird Dancer is an amazing baker , I bet she would share a recipe or two.