<font color="purple">I have come to the conclusion that I pretty much want to be a victim. Why? Because the recognition feels good, it's nice for people to notice and love you, and having some sort of mental illness of any sort makes me feel more unique then other people. I've convinced myself that I'm troubled, and then dig up any and every bad thing that ever happened to me to help to verify this. It feels like I'd rather NOT recover- even if something bad happened.

Of course, I also think at the same time that if this IS the case, then obviously there is something wrong because no normal human being would want to put themselves though this, no matter how much they like the attention. Well, unless they are histrionic and a hypochondriac or something.

Sorry people here at PC.
I feel like crap for trying to grab at your emotions like that.
Because, I don't exactly need them, and someone else probably needs them more.
Maybe I should just go and stop bothering people. </font>