<font color="purple">I just don't know, I mean, I could just be kicking myself while I'm down, but could actualy be right to. I don't really want to be right about this though because it goes against alot of my values ad makes me a bad person. (I don't want to be a bad person!)

I've tried to meditate before, sometimes it works and sometimes my brain just refuses to slow down or stay still for a moment and it pretty much ruins everything. (infact, the only time it HAS been succesful is when I'm outside of in the water) </font>