i dont believe that very many really bad people exist, and you would not appear on that short list Kaika..

i hope i was not a 'bad' person when i was down and confused... i was down and confused wasnt i? not bad? i didnt intend to be bad... but the dark cloud is very wide at times..

those are some good life enjoyments you can think about or look forward to... thats' so important imo..

i can relate to a lot of what you say... it took me a long time to work my way thru it... im glad you have hope and dreams Kaika.... when there was so little else i could find something there that kept me moving..

its so important i think to know when to take a good, mind restoring rest for yourself... i hope you do continue seeking and trying.. those two things can really take you far imo..

sending you good hope Kaika, dont give up.. you really really do matter.. we all do...