HI cashart!

I have very limited time for PC so far today. I do want to jump in and tell you I also feel you are very courageous to start this thread.
I may have something to add when I have more time. In the meantime, I know it can be difficult while wondering if the community is okay with a subject we have introduced. I don't want my silence interpreted as lacking in support of you and of this thread. I think it is very healthy to raise these "taboo" topics whenever someone is struggling and wants to share and/or hopes for feedback. It's a very healthy conversation.