I Know there's something wrong with me. I've known ever since I've recognized the run-of-the-mill "Normal" person. But....I'm scared to ask for help, because I'm scared a doctor will laugh at me, or dismiss my symptoms as a "personality quirk" or just "me being stupid"

I've tried talking to friends, asking them what i should do. But I'm scared to approach my doctor (Considering I recently changed doctors and don't know her very well) and I'm even more fearful to approach a Psychologist or Psychiatrist. I'm scared They'll dismiss me, and tell me I'm just being stupid. And I'm finding it even more difficult to approach my parents. (Although I'm of age where I can seek help individually, without their consent)

I've been suffering from severe skin picking / nail biting since I was little, and since 3 years ago, more symptoms and afflictions have begun to emerge. I can't step on Cracks, Lines, or patterns. I'm extremely embarassed about this. When I do it, I'm scared everyone it watching me, and judging me. Sometimes people will ask me about it, because at work we have a patterned floor, and I'll have to avoid the white squares, and I'll kind of clam up, and will try to avoid the subject. It's extremely annoying as well. Sweeping and mopping the floor is difficult, since I can't step on the squares; and frankly, it makes me feel ridiculous. I'm also scared to death of Vomit, which has really begun to affect my life. I'm scared to go to parties, clubs, or to drink, for fear of seeing vomit, or throwing up myself. I've come to learn this is Emetophobia, but sometimes I'll lay in bed and thoughts of people vomiting or vomit will intrude my thoughts, and I almost have to chase the thoughts away. I'm also scared that while I'm driving, I'll run over a pedestrian, or run into the back of someone, and get chilling sexual/inappropriate thoughts and dreams about coworkers. I Have terrible anxiety, I'll get anxious over nothing. Even now, while typing this, I feel like I'm doing something wrong, or not doing the right thing.But the most debilitating symptom of all is the panic attacks. They'll come out of nowhere, and range from minor to severe. The minor ones are only Shortness of breath, dizziness, and the severe need to "escape." However, the more severe ones include, Chest pains, Nausea, Derealization, racing/loud thoughts, dizziness, rapid heat beat, uncontrollable crying, uncontrollable shaking, and tingling mostly in the hands and arms. Then afterwards, severe depression and fatigue.

And while I was in highschool, my school Counselors advised i seek help for ADD, because of short attention span, poor concentration, inability to sit still, and easy distractibility. Though.... I've lived with that pretty much since I was a kid, and have that under control. (I think...)

I know all of that seems like a mouthful, but I feel overwhelmed with everything that's going on with me, and I'm scared I'm just blowing everything out of proportion. I'm starting to get severely depressed, because I'm scared I'm going crazy.

I'm in college right now, And I think my school offers mental health as apart of their Health Services. But I'm just so scared of getting rejected.

If someone, anyone can offer help, I'd be greatly appreciative. I Just don't know what to do, and feel like if I keep putting "me" on hold, and keep making up excuses or lies for why I Do certain things (Lies mostly to myself) , I'll end up loosing my friends, or worse, hurting myself.