Powerful others in early childhood showing me and telling me that I had to be someone I am not. And to not be authentic. And to never feel that i'm ok as is (that was called self satisfied... I couldn't have been further from that but still was called that, at 6? yeah right. And that I ''shared the bare minimum'' … I wonder why? I can't think why. I must have been ''faulty'' at birth. That makes me angry. And those ''powerful others'' in positions of power irl who misdiagnosed me. So quick to judge with their ammunition to shoot me down. Grrrrrrrr And if I try to talk about that irl, any of it, i'm told things like ''talking doesn't help some people''. Yeah ok. I was also told though by someone else ''talking therapies are better than meds'' ..'' go figure'' .. I cant figure me out sometimes and they sure as **** can't and don't even try to, with the respect and understanding that I, and everyone else, deserves.

Sorry about the rant. I've tried to write in other forums and people don't get it. or some don't.

I went to the river today

my fur is all clean and shiny