Please be kind to yoursel, @OliverB! It seems like you're going through A LOT! It does seem like you may benefit from the help of an experienced Therapist. It is good that you're seeing a Psychiatrist, but waiting so long between appointments certainly sucks! Is it possible to increase the number of appointments you can do each month? In any case, please take care of yourself as much as you possibly can! I don't know the details of what happened with your ex-friend, but it doesn't seem fair that you should pay for what HE did. Is it possible for you to talk to your Landlord and reach an agreement? In any case, certainly talk to your Lawyer about ALL of this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully he/she will be able to help somehow! Start looking for a cheap place as well just to stay safe in case anything happens. I am sure you're looking for one already though! Can your friend help you with some of your expenses? Is there any other student in your College who may give you an hand? Certainly you're not the only one struggling with things like this! Please do not compare yourself to others as you're your own unique individual and you need to do things at your own time and pace, ok? Please hit me up if you want to. I'll be glad to listen. i am sorry I can't do more to help! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @OliverB, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking no matter what happens, ok? YOU ARE THE BEST!