I've made the call, a support worker will be in touch with me next week the call went really well!! I'm sure further communication with this charity will bring me lots of closure and make it easier to leave if that's what would be best

Pros of staying - cuddles.. innocent affection like that, nothing too wild like sex and I've grown an attachment to him, it's not that I'm in love but I'm used to his company now, you know? Stopping that would feel really strange.. I've been with him so long, I have feelings for him, as careless and insensitive as he can be to them

Leaving.. I'd be free of the anxiety, insecurity, stress, and sadness , all of which being a result of this relationship , once I've learned to combat these emotions.. Hopefully leaving will introduce me to a happier, brighter, promising alternative to being with him OTHERWISE why not stay?? You know