If it helps I'll share that before I got sick I was doing a lot of healing work on myself. I essentially 'healed' myself sick and drew out a mental illness in the process. Sometimes we become so hyperfocused on the inner work that we lose sight of the outer world. I made that exact mistake. The darkest parts of my inner world came forward and my mind shattered. It was a terribly ugly and painful process.

It is really hard to balance when you want to experience wellness so badly that you're willing to push yourself hard. I've learned now that a lot of the healing comes in the moment when we focus and connect there. I kept missing that when I was focused more on my inner world. I'm trying now to go within briefly to look for themes of what I need to work on and then live my life. Those same themes then usually manifest in the outer world one way or another allowing me to put the work into practice. The timing is random and sometimes it goes slower than I would like, but the work gets done.

I believe we are here to connect fully in the moment and experience this world and all of the amazing things it has to offer us. I used to feel oppositely as though the important part of life was hidden somehow and I had to discover it. It isn't. The most important things are right in front of our faces in plain sight if we only have eyes to see!

I was way too hyperfocused for a while and lost sight of that. It left my spirit raw and weak. I'd suggest taking a step back and just get back to being a good person in your daily tasks for a while. Hold gratitude for the experiences and you might find like I did they hold all you need to do the work as you go along. You may still need to spend time reflecting and setting intention, but you'll find it more like maintenance and less like the main event.

Your 'mistake' will serve you well in the end. You are wise to realize it and you can learn a lot from it if you so desire. That's actually you doing 'the work'. You just jumped up a level!