Are you depressed? Depression oftentimes effects your desire. Being on any medications or using any drugs can also cause lower sex drive. If you feel that you are not depressed, then you need to evaluate how into this girl you are. She sounds wonderful; I envy you for having someone so wonderful. But if she's not right for you, then for her sake you need to let her go.

You saying "i don't love myself" sounds familiar to me. I have also felt tat way and it's a classic sign of depression. I ended up on Wellbutrin, which isn't suppose to affect you sex drive. You need to take care of yourself.

You said you were two-timed so you miust find it hard to trust. I can also relate. Take care of yourself and you will find it easier to deal with a relationship. Depression can eat away at you and it is hard on a relationship. I'm not saying you're depressed, just that it may be a possability. Good luck and I hope you make the right choice.