Well, you sound quite likable to me @Biba_yu, and I know those feelings of isolation as well. Of trying your best but feeling like you're always going backwards. Backwards into the swamp. Yes, it's a strange lonely world all right Biba_yu. That's why I logon to this site - I don't feel so alone in my struggles here and I hope you don't feel so alone as well sometimes, friend.

I've been posting in the General Social Chat section on this site quite a bit lately, which has been good for helping me release some of my inner thoughts and feelings - which no one would ever know otherwise. So, that's been taking away some of the loneliness for me. Seems to help reduce my depressive episodes a bit quicker too, but it's early to say.

Keep reaching out friend. We're all in the same boat, I feel.