Thank you, Mode.Of.Soul. I already been to this site few years ago but I did not found any relief so I tried different things, other things, so many things. It doesn't help. Nothng help. I know, life is short. I know I should enjoy what I have, but still fail to do that. Even worse, I feel pressured to be happy, to enjoy things, because tomorrow might be late. Because bad things can happen, I could feel like I had it all now, but I did not enjoy it and then it's too late. Do I sound confising? It's like when you save for some great vacation trip you always wanted, and when you finally can go you feel pressured to enjoy every moment of it, and that feeling, that pressure, ruins it for you. Life is leaving, my youth is leaving and I still can't enjoy life as it is. Why? What is wrong with me? And why can't I just be alone and not care even if no one in the world likes me? Why do I need approval?