This all goes back to the things I believe you were told in the previous thread. Maybe you could go back and reference that and it would help? I think you are experiencing paranoia and it is causing you to hear things in these recordings that didn't happen. I don't know how else to put it. I do not think your therapist is saying the things you think she is saying.
I don't know if these are auditory hallucinations necessarily, since you are hearing real sounds. However, I think your paranoia is so severe that your mind is distorting the sounds so that you're hearing things that you fear she might say. To me, this sounds less like a hallucination and more like a paranoid delusion.
I encourage you to resist recording your sessions. That was my advice last time, as well. It sounds like things were better for a time when you stopped recording. I would go back to that.
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