The only little thing I might add to the outstanding thoughts above is that, forgetting for a moment about what the exact definition of an addiction is, the fact remains that the enemy of many intrusive thoughts associated with compulsions is the company of other solid people. So, for a fentanyl addict, being with other non-fentanyl people is very much pro-recovery. On the other hand, for a sports gambling addict, isolation is opportunity, because all it takes is a cell phone with a credit card number to place some secret bets and then flip to ESPN or SI.com, also on the phone, to watch for results. The isolation creates the opportunity for the secret-keeping to occur.

So, I love the idea of being sure your phone home screen is your family. The challenge, I suspect, will be those hours when you are alone. Great suggestions above. Is there maybe a way to minimize the amount of time you find yourself all alone for a little while, just until you have this sort of more in control? Just a thought. It might help.

I appreciate and applaud your courage in posting this. Sending you positive vibes and strength. And one last thing. Try not to look at solving this whole thing right now--or ever. Cut it up into digestible chunks that are realistic for you. This is what I do with my recovery. So, on a hard day for me, instead of taking it one day at a time, I might take it one hour at a time. That way, I am not overwhelmed by the larger task. All I have to do is this one hour. Then, I move on to the next. Probably sounds silly, but it does change the way I look at what is before me and it becomes more doable. Rome wasn't built in a day type of thing. Seems to be helpful.

That's all I got for now. Wishing you all the best. You can do it!