Hi,
I am new to these forums and I want to say right off the bat that I have not been diagnosed with any dissociative disorder. I do not indent to self-diagnose.

The reason I feel compelled to post here is because for the past handful of years I’ve been dealing with increasing symptoms of dissociation- depersonalization, derealization, the voices in my head, confusion, almost constant nightmares. All of these things I thought were just normal until I realized I have bouts of missing time, so I started researching.

In the past couple of months I have hit such a low in my life, and it’s gotten to the point that I worry I’ll hit rock bottom and won’t be able to climb back up. I know I need to seek therapy, but I feel stuck and terrified to do so. I’ve seen a couple therapists before, but not nearly long enough, or I’m just not open enough because I’m scared I guess.

No one in my life truly knows what is going on with me. It’s taken me some time to even reach out here, I guess I’m here seeking support and any advice you care to offer.

Thanks to anyone that took the time read this.