I never thought I'd use "efficiency" to describe my therapy, it really doesn't seem like a positive thing to me necessarily, but last session, was simply, efficient. We must have covered a dozen topics bam bam bam, all without feeling rushed, getting to the heart of and dealing satisfactorily with each before moving on. It was both whirlwind and comfortable. Is this how it gets after a year and a half of therapy with the same therapist? You just know each other so well, you can deal with the underlying feelings of incidents without beating around the bush and circling aimlessly and avoiding what's really important? We were just in the zone. (And who knows, maybe we will not get to this place again next week or for a while. But that's OK.)

We knocked off a lot of stuff. We were close. We had some great discussion of the coach vs. therapist roles and what I can hope for in terms of couples healing. I was able to reveal my feelings time and time again. (Who was that person sitting opposite the therapist, anyway? ) I told him how I sometimes find it annoying when he is being the coach and all I want is my therapist. He says he knows. It felt really good to be able to tell him that. T showed me his wedding photos, and I felt a great deal of joy. I think I radiated that and T received it and ponged it back at me. Like when a string is plucked and everything in the vicinity starts to vibrate at the same frequency. I got another chance to tell him how much it has meant to me that he has shared his experience of divorce and then "finding the one". This has given me such hope for the future.