I think maybe movies and popular series are doing a lot of damage, maybe even social medias. Everyone has a lot of caring friends, all around are perfect relationships, everyone is ready to help... especially when someone is severely depressed. They want to help, like everyone wants to help, even if depressed person refuses it at first. We have expectations of life. And we see... how we are getting older and older. I can see that literally in mirror, in photos, and most of all, my health and my stamina which are disappearing slowly. My life is slowly passing by. And where are my friends? Where are parties, vacations, fun? Where is my, if not boyfriend, at least, lover? Where is love for me? If I say I am depressed, people just leave me alone. They just go. I had friends and they also left me. I was too much of work, not enough fun at depression times.

Where are those people who will help me? Where are my friends? At least someone who will like my work which I offered for free? No one? I know there are things forbidden to write on this forum, which I understand as it could push some people over the edge. But what about us who are thinking about it? Who will help us? Where are those lovely friends and boyfriends we see on tv? Where are those parties and sun and life? Why am I just older and sadder every day? And I can't even say what am I thinking about because it is too horrible? And I could get banned. My life is very very lonely.