I don't really feel like addressing anything else to you, but then whom do I address stuff I can't tell people? Sometimes I just get a feeling that I want to say something. What I want to say isn't important to anyone but me and it's rarely interesting. I just have an urge to put it somewhere away from me. Journaling doesn't work. I might as well just talk to myself. No, I want to send out what I say even though there is no recipient.

Today I am sad. Feels very much like I have nothing to look forward to. Had bizarre, distressing dreams. I wish my sister was here. At times it feels like everyone on earth has died except for me because I feel so far away. But then when I do see people when I have to leave home, I feel like I must be an alien because I still feel so separate.