You're going through A LOT, @AnxiousGirl! Yes, I can definitely see how you Hypchondria may be at play here as well as your Anxiety. You've said you've stopped seeing your Therapist. Can you tell us why? I feel like a Therapist may be REALLY useful to you right now. It does seem like you're having some troubles when it comes to trusting your Doctors. I feel like a GOOD Therapist may help you to cope with EVERYTHING that is going on right now, ESPECIALLY since your Grandfather passed away. I am SO SORRY for your Los! :sadhhug: You will need time to Grieve so please do take ALL the time you need to process the Loss of your AMAZING Grandfather! Don't forget to take care of yourself as well, too! It is hard, but I am afraid that you will have to trust your Doctors. You've said that your current one is super smart so I'd put your trust in Him or Her. After all, He/She is there to help you! Yes, that won't give you 100% certainty, but at the very least you can stay reasonably assured. Plus, your Grandfather probably had a certain age and unfortunately "surprises" of this kind can come up when you're Old! However,y you're young so I wouldn't worry too much about it. Also, please avoid reading articles on the Internet as it seems like they may fuel your Anxiety. Please do stay safe! I am not sure whether you should ask your Doctor to make a Pap Smear, but if you feel like it may make you even more Anxious, and that you may be even MORE dangerous to Yourself or Others, perhaps it's best to wait. I certainly hope you'll be able to find a good Therapist. If your last one didn't help you too much, don't give up! There are plenty of them and hopefully you'll be able to find the right match! Please be kind to yourself and STAY SAFE! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @anxious, Girl, your Family, your Friends, your Grandfather, your Parents, your Relatives, your Brothers, your Sisters, your Buddies, your Pals, your Cousins, your Uncles, your Mates, your Comrades, your Compatriots, your Nephews, your Doctors, your Therapists, your Pdocs, your GPs, your Psychiatrists, your Neurologists, your Nurses, your Social Workers and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?